I could feel the soft breath of the ocean intertwine with the stillness of the river. I sat in the middle of the abundant diverse environment and reflected on the times in my life where meetings of synchronicity felt as destined as this meeting between river and sea. In the estuary, I met my childhood self, my heartbroken self, my healing self, my toxic self, my joyous self, my insecure self, my curious self, my fearful self, and my loving self. I met myself as lover, friend, sibling, and child. All my dimensions coalesced with the water, the sun, the sand, and the humid air. In interconnected presence, we all merged into one.
When lovers meet, not only do they come together to build on mutual attraction and common interests, but they also get to know each other's differences too. I have spent so much time romanticizing meeting lovers, sitting in stillness with the estuary gave me a sacred moment to contemplate what it means to meet myself as lover and friend. My relationship with myself was one that I had neglected for so long. In that deep moment of presence, I rekindled many dimensions, and I was able to see my own contradictions and fluidities come together as fertile, flowing, and abundant. Not only did I meet myself, but I also met everything that I am inseparable from. Nothing is separate, everything is interconnected, and we are all here, now.
– Mimi Zhu, Be Not Afraid of Love: Lessons on Fear, Intimacy, and Connection