✧ concept boards
✬ being guided by love
✳ thinking about liberation
✹ thinking about deep rooted knowledge, the subconscious, archetypes
❀ lists of all kinds
❂ books/ talk / movies
❃ earth speak
❈ knowledge infrastructure
☉ nature of reality
☼ thoughts and some more learning
☽ inner world
some of my art -> ilonaaltman.com
htx / pittsburgh
“The bigness of the world is redemption.
Despair compresses you into a small space, and a depression is literally a hollow in the ground. To dig deeper into the self, to go underground, is sometimes necessary, but so is the other route of getting out of yourself, into the larger world, into the openness in which you need not clutch your story and your troubles so tightly to your chest.
Being able to travel both ways matters, and sometimes the way back into the heart of the question begins by going outward and beyond.”
— Rebecca Solnit, from “Mirrors”
Do you pray? It is one of the most intimate questions. Do I? Yes, I pray – earthwise rather than to any off-ground god – and, though I cannot tell you the words I use, I will tell you their core is beauty. These prayers are the strongest elixir of my language. I put the essence of myself into them, but if anyone was looking, they would see no drama, no props, just breath and a certain abstraction from the mundane for a sweet minute. I pray in the mornings and my mind doesn’t feel right until I have done so. Mornings are more ritual-garlanded than other times of the day, readying oneself to steady the day. Rituals of exercise, yoga, meditation, journalling or dream diaries; rituals of washing and rituals of eating. (Breakfast is the most habit-bound of meals.) Creating internal order before the day unleashes its chaos, one attempts through ritual to decrease one’s own missteps, placating mischance.