note to self: lean out of your window more at the end of the day. the air smells different, the colours are so much more vibrant. and the sounds feel so much more grounding.
life has been really difficult lately. i don't think i was prepared for how challenging this path would be. i've had to learn a lot of lessons the hard way, and i sometimes feel as though i've 'destroyed' myself and will never return to who i was before. but i'm trying to not think of it that way; trying to believe in being able to heal :-)
trying to not be too hard on myself. i've got to love and take care of myself better. be more gentle and understanding. this journey is not a race, it's not a competition. it's a long journey with many challenges that I may not be able to overcome on my first try (or even at all). but that's ok <3 as long as I put in the work, I should be proud of myself! there will be many things that is out of my control, and it's not my fault if things don't turn out well or how i expected them to. don't tie my self worth to my (perceived? comparative?) output! or measure progress in only positive results. treat myself more.
meditate more, go out in nature more. hang out with friends, and have fun! let my brain rest a little more!!! an 8 hour workday is just a made up concept... most people aren't "productive" the full 8 hours anyway. celebrate little victories.
