I see myself as an embodiment of optimistic nihilism, of a love of purposelessness. "If life has no meaning, then we are free to make our own meaning."

You are not required to agree with me, nor understand me. Life and reality will continue to exist regardless of what we say/think/do, and this extends to the whole of all sentient life. For me, personally, I derive strength and power from being able to self-determine.

Anger and frustration. Sadness and boredom. Pain, and loneliness. Signs of life, signs of humanity. Messengers of your unmet needs, signals of your many barriers. You have a hard road ahead of you, and it may never get easier - but you will keep getting stronger. You're stronger now than when you were five years ago. Three years ago. Last year.

You're facing a sharp reality - there is only so much that our words and encouragement can do. There is only so much that tears can accomplish. Rage can only carry you so far.