05.23.2023
I just noticed yesterday was my 300th block.
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I really like this project. I think that doing this makes me feel like me. Specifically, thinking about thought, thinking about pattern, writing, formatting, looking at data. All through the lens of design.
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Working from home today for the first time in what feels like a really long time. I wanted to go into the office because my computer there works better but I have an appointment over lunch so I am staying here. I slept in kind of late this morning which was nice. I also went to bed early.
I’m trying so hard to have a positive outlook on things and just kind of relax but I can’t ignore that in my gut something doesn’t feel right. I feel like I definitely trauma-dumped on Alex yesterday but he had so many helpful things to say that, in a way, I’m glad I did. Getting an outside perspective from someone who understands your situation is always so important. Otherwise I feel like I just spin in circles in my mind about things.
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For someone who feels really happy and excited about things all the time, why do I feel so sad?