you don't do things because you're good at them, or even with the aim of "getting good at them". it's all a process of slowly understanding, exploring and discovering the relationship you have with something. the goal is not to become like the others, but instead to discover yourself

“Never try to convey your idea to the audience - it is a thankless and senseless task. Show them life, and they’ll find within themselves the means to assess and appreciate it.” ― Andrei Tarkovsky

Dreams must be considered as forms of knowledge

Too early in the process to start compromising