I fear of losing all that i know so that when the moment comes for me to share my knowledge or ideas i will not be able to recall them, so I constantly put them down because my inspiration is very sporadic so i need to make use of it and this is why i dont let anything escape ans i need to hold onto things so that once i need it, i know where to find it or if i am not inspired, simply scrolling through what i wrote or put out inspires me