I am revisited but no unfair nor agonizing pain comes with this. I feel some melancholy because nothing in the world would have allowed me to have any say in the final decision. I had no control no matter what and it just happened because circumstance decided it so. Alignment of it all in place has always been difficult and almost impossible. And so I am unexpectedly revisted and provided a fill of regret, even though nothing I would have done could justifiably make me regretful.