No model of a system will include all features of the real system of concern, and no model of a system must include all entities belonging to a real system of concern.
I saw my friends and past lovers as immensely bright sparks of various individual colors flying through a space of possibilities with me, at varying distances and speeds, as though we were all engaged in some common struggle or journey together and should help each other in pursuing it. Though we were all spread out over the country now, I momentarily flashed back to my earlier visions of living in primitive tribes. Abstract modernity brings us closer than geography, at least, in part. It was beautiful.
My state of awareness underwent a sudden and intense paradigm shift. All of the sudden I was one with the matrix from whence all life in the universe (spirit or otherwise) originates. This flash involved a full 100% ego dissolution and was in many ways overwhelming and awe striking. To some this can be terrifying. If your dose is too high, this is where you lose control. In this instance I shut of the light and lay in bed in the darkness for the remainder.
Placebos are extraordinary drugs. They seem to have some effect on almost every symptom known to mankind, and work in at least a third of patients and sometimes in up to 60 percent. They have no serious side-effects and cannot be given in overdose.