Genuine scientific research fights its own desire and its own expectations. In the ultimate probe the scientist opposes his own theses. It is typical for the scientist to provoke opponents, with a preference for such who submit everything to discussion with precise and concrete objections. What seems to be destructive becomes fertile. Science is lost when discussion is avoided, when ideas are confined to congenial circles and destructive aggression eliminates opposition with truisms.

"Time exists in order that everything doesn’t happen all at once … and space exists so that it doesn’t all happen to you."
-Susan Sontag

You have to both be incredibly willing to be humbled and also, at the same time, hold an incredible high level of delusion. The high level of delusion is what allows you to keep writing and to want to share it with the world. But you also have to accept that it might not mean anything to other people, or that you might be writing so esoterically or so privately that other people have no way of entering into your ideas.