I don't want to know more, I want to integrate more.
It's not about accumulation, it's about connection.
I am listening now with all of my senses, as if the whole universe might exist just to teach me more about love. I listen to strangers, I listen to random invitations, I listen to criticisms, I listen to my body, I listen to my creativity and to the artists who inspire me, I listen to elders, I listen to my dreams and the books I am reading. I notice that the more I pay attention, the more I see order, clear messages, patterns, and invitations in the small or seemingly random things that happen in my life. In all these ways, I meditate on love.
⚘ adrienne maree brown
This is a place to talk about spaces, places that we can exist in, the rooms that have defined our lives or the ones we haven’t lived in yet.
realizing how much my "feeling like a woman" is reinforced through having sex with cis men and once i stop having to perform femininity i just feel kinda... genderless?
Gilles Deleuze // "The problem is no longer getting people to express themselves, but providing little gaps of solitude and silence in which they might eventually find something to say... What a relief to have nothing to say, the right to say nothing, because only then is there a chance of framing...the thing that might be worth saying."
What's going to happen? Nothing will happen. Nothing could possibly happen. What will I do? [...] Fall in love knowing that all is lost and there is no hope.
—José Emilio Pacheco, "Battles in the Desert," (tr. Katherine Silver)