23 sept 2022

carnival like thing next to hotel, with a maze, a viking ship, slide. i went maze first, two paths, one more dark and one more bright with all the actual obstacles. i ended up going the path that was darker but it was like a shortcut with no obstacles at all.

then afterwards lots of doors (3-4) to get to the rooms and activities before, my cousins didnt wanna hang with me, left me alone. they went to play with matt and his gf and the others and i was v sad and told mom but she wasnt very understanding. thad said he’ll hang out with me lol

The whole skin has this delightful sensitivity; it feels the sun, it feels the wind running inside one's garment, it feels water closing on it as one slips under - the catch in the breath, like a wave held back, the glow that releases one's entire cosmos, running to the ends of the body as the spent wave runs out upon the sand. This plunge into the cold water of a mountain pool seems for a brief moment to disintegrate the very self; it is not to be borne: one is lost: stricken: annihilated. Then life pours back.

| Nan Shepherd

"if you find a conversational partner who’s willing to get a little weird, you can use the room you’re in to build a shared memory palace. when you discover an interesting train of thought, you “place” it somewhere in the room. pretty soon, you’re literally surrounded by the convo

the weird thing is you can come up with new connections or concepts by physically moving/dancing between the landmarks in your mini memory palace

you’re basically setting up an infrastructure that lets you see ideas in visual form before you know how to translate them into words"

“The way human beings speak is so heartbreaking to me—we never sound the way we want to sound. We’re always stopping ourselves in mid–sentence because we’re so terrified of saying the wrong thing. Speaking is a kind of misery. And I guess I comfort myself by finding the rhythms and accidental poetry in everyone’s inadequate attempts to articulate their thoughts. We’re all sort of quietly suffering as we go about our days, trying and failing to communicate to other people what we want and what we believe.”