Entry Five (on money)
I never want more than I need. I never want to be rich. I never want to make a decision based on whether I'll be wealthier for it or not. Even though I'm poor, and my family is poor, I do not want to have to live in fear of the lifestyle of a "poor" person. I want to have 1 dollar in my bank account and feel happy all day. I want to accept work that improves the world/my world. I do not want to accept work that improves my ability to express myself with brands. I want to be the creator of as many of my commodities as I can be. I am a designer: i have the power to design and make the cups I drink out of, I have the ability to design and make the clothes that I wear, I have the ability to design and make the shiny jewelry I like, I have the ability to make curtains, fabric, throw pillows, a couch if I try very hard, a table if I ask Noah's dad to help, I can paint my own nails, I can cook my own five course meal, I can make my own shampoo (if I try), I can travel for free with my imagination.
All I need is money to have a house, enough underwear, utilities, food, a bus pass, and health insurance.
I can be the creator, ad agency, store, shopgirl, designer, and hypewoman of all of the earthly commodities I desire.
I can desire less so that I can be a freer person.
I won't be fooled by the people around me who express their value with nike shoes. Or a fancy job doing mock ups for nike.
I will never need a phone or computer that is newest/cutting edge because I understand moore's law and also worked on a campaign for new phones that are no better than the old phones.
I will make more things with software that is free or cheap, or no software at all. Fuck you adobe, I will not rent from you forever.
I will seek educational experiences that are not tied to an institution that pays their educators nothing while I pay them everything. I will just email those educators myself and ask questions.
I will try to grow my own food from seeds.
I will go on walks for entertainment.
I will not live a life dependent on having more, I have enough now.
I'm more interested in textures than I am in color right now. I would like reverse color-blind glasses. I would like to see more things in black and white (I know that color blind people do not see things in black and white) I'd like to learn more about texture theory and less about color theory.
“I see design essentially as a storytelling process, in the sense that I understand all human artifacts to be implicated in telling the story of the universe. I like the image of an archaeologist examining an artefact from a lost civilization. Many centuries after its designer lived, that artefact continues to suggest narratives about the culture that produced it.” James Langdon