But maybe you don’t need to be explainable. Maybe the most interesting perspectives come from being willing to occupy a difficult-to-define place, even if it means sacrificing others' understanding of you. The challenge then becomes committing to occupy that place far longer than most feel comfortable — long enough to cultivate a voice out of your curiosity that is confident enough in its own continuity to tell you exactly what’s worth committing to when the time comes.
“The log of knowledge or information contained in the brain of the average citizen is enormous. But the form in which it resides is largely unknown. You may have read a thousand books and be able to discuss any one of them without remembering a word of the text.”
– Cormac McCarthy The Kekulé Problem
We’ve forgotten that the moon is the luminary of night, reflecting the sun’s rays to guide us in the darkness. Technology and artificial lights blind us. We no longer inhabit true darkness to witness the full brilliance and structural purpose of the moon as an integrated way of life.
As soon as I desire, I am asking to be considered. I am not merely here-and-now, sealed into thingness. I am for somewhere else and for something else. I demand that notice be taken of my negating activity insofar as I pursue something other than life; insofar as I do battle for the creation of a human world—that is a world of reciprocal recognitions.
This is why writing is important. It’s harder to fool yourself that you understand something when you sit down to write about it and it comes out all disjointed and confused. Writing forces clarity.
The ironic thing about lessons is that they are always in progress, always revised and re-examined as we live, even when we are sure that the process is over. Instead, I love what Albert Huffstickler says:
“That is what we’re looking for. Not the end of a thing but the shape of it. Wisdom is seeing the shape of your life without obliterating a single instant of it."