Whenever you obtain a grant, one of the conditions is that you mention the relevant council in any promotional material, which is a constant reminder of the colonial state. This same state pays for artists to travel overseas representing Canada, the exemplar of diversity and multiculturalism. I suggest that these are ways in which we all, those of us who receive grants, promote, willingly or not, the colonial state that is Canada. We are all contaminated, as I said before. Every grant we receive, whether or not it is a celebration, reinscribes the colonial state. Perhaps what artists should have done, or should do, is demand similar funds be made available year-round, coming out of this. I think what we need to do is always find ways around what the state intends.
Mutual love is often thought of as mutual recognition: I see you for who you are and you see me back. But recognition is inevitably also a naming, a fixing, a pinning down. In order to recognize, you have to categorize, and categories are notoriously inflexible.
- Elvia Wilk
One difference between sadness and depression is that, while sadness apprehends itself as a contingent and temporary state of affairs, depression presents itself as necessary and interminable: the glacial surfaces of the depressive’s world extend to every conceivable horizon. In the depths of the condition, the depressive does not experience his or her melancholia as pathological or indeed abnormal: the conviction of depression that agency is useless, that beneath the appearance of virtue lies only venality, strikes sufferers as a truth which they have reached but others are too deluded to grasp. There is clearly a relationship between the seeming `realism’ of the depressive, with its radically lowered expectations, and capitalist realism.
"Daily life becomes precarious. Planning ahead becomes difficult, routines are impossible to establish. Work, of whatever sort, might begin or end anywhere at a moment’s notice, and the burden is always on the worker to create the next opportunity and to surf between roles. The individual must exist in a state of constant readiness. Predictable income, savings, the fixed category of `occupation’: all
belong to another historical world" (Ivor Southwood, Non Stop Intertia p15).
Frühjahrsmüdigkeit (German) Early year tiredness. The daunting and dispiriting feeling of the opportunities given by a new beginning —the fear of not being able to do justice to our potential.
My ancestors carved the moon from the sun
Their skin turning to the colors of olives
(Stroke your cheek)
They came back home as a strangers and were forced to leave
The moon took pity and turned them into stars