i woke up and immediately sat down at the desk, intending to start work for the day. upon doing so, i felt unsettled and noticed myself having a difficult time deciding where to get started. | source: @pingpractice
I try to be intentional about when I use possessive pronouns in an effort to establish, and remind myself of, the conceptual distance I perceive there to be between a person (in this case myself) and:
* The objects they make/buy/maintain/use
* The ideas that emerge within them
* The questions they pose
* The people they're in relationship/community with
Creating this distance helps me to feel safer "seeing" and "thinking about" the above honestly [i] by limiting the scope of what the "sight" and "thought" I am expressing is intending to be a comment on/about.
i. "Honesty" doesn't feel satisfying accurate. Tho, language that would is not clear to me in this moment.
Instinctively, for me to feel like I’ve processed this experience, and thus, be capable of evolving with it [rather than, say, being stuck within it] depends on me ascribing some meaning to it that I can translate into making choices in the future that are informed by this meaning.
I like saying "evolving with" as opposed to something like "evolving from"...
...the former reminds me that I accept that everything I experience remains within me in some way or form and the meaning I ascribe to these experiences will evolve with me as well.
Before believing the voice that says, "You're not 'moving' fast enough," what might it look like to pause and ask: "Ok, what did you expect to see and feel by now?" Prompt #57
When I recognize I am using metaphor to describe something, I like to indicate as much by surrounding it with quotation marks, as I've done with
I do so intending that someone reading what I'm writing will feel empowered to insert a metaphor that feels descriptive of, and native to, what they are experiencing. As I result, I hope they will be more likely to "try on" what I'm expressing and a bit less likely to dismiss it on the basis of whether the specific words I've chosen resonate.
Meta: maybe the above isn’t for me to decide / attempt to control? In either case, at the core of this convention is an attempt to invite people into thinking with me.
What is one experience/interaction/set of feelings/etc. that you can permit yourself not to feel satisfying resolution around for right now? Prompt #56
When I have yet to arrive at the language that I feel sufficiently communicates what I'm attempting to express, I like to include a few possibilities (as I've done in the bolded bit above).
I find that doing so:
- Makes it easier for my present self to move past the precision I can sometimes get stuck on seeking
- Creates some "surface" for my future self to iterate upon
I wonder how other people experience this kind of convention. To date, I've assumed that it helps other people assess the fidelity of the thought/the conviction [or lack thereof] I have in it.