3 blocks • 1 day ago
ur gonna get older and shake your head when you think about how you tried to force yourself into places you didn't fit when you could have just kept exploring. it's scary to not know where you belong, but staying in places where you don't feel yourself is not the answer.
its taking me some time to process what really happened in may. i'm with someone right now who makes me happy. i struggled when i first met them because i had a skewed notion of love that i created from all the half-ass relationships i had previously been in. in may you really hurt me. you were making me anxious and i could feel you pulling away but refusing to let go. that wasn't fair. i told you what i wanted and you wanted something different but couldn't admit it. you kept me around for a reason i will never know or ask about. you don't get to treat people that way. i've been feeling a little sad about it recently. i thought i was sad about you, but i've come to realize that i am sad for who i was. i am sad that i accepted so little from you and kept you in my life for as long as i did. i hope you're well. i hope you got the job you were talking about. i hope you're making the rent.
i don't blame you anymore. you showed me who you were at the start. i knew there was never going to be a good ending.
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