When all by myself, I can think of all kinds of clever remarks, quick comebacks to what no one said, and flashes of witty sociability with nobody. But all of this vanishes when I face someone in the flesh: I lose my intelligence, I can no longer speak, and after half an hour I just feel tired. Talking to people makes me feel like sleeping. Only my ghostly and imaginary friends, only the conversations I have in my dreams, are genuinely real and substantial.

Fernando Pessoa

Of all ridiculous things the most ridiculous seems to me, to be busy—to be a man who is brisk about his food and his work.

| Søren Kierkegaard, Either/Or

Stop blaming the system for your weakness. Push through. Make the world better. If you give up and complain, you raise defenses and nobody can ever really win. Get up, get dressed and fucking work to see change.

being present means being in the space you are in and being fully integrated there. not being present means thinking of the space you last were or the one you will go after this - and a part of you is actually there so that is why you are tired and out of reach. just be here.