Recently came to a realization about how different my internal dialogue sounds like...quieter, softer, kinder, less sado-masochistic
The regime of fear has passed...but there isn't any new management yet... there's a succession crisis...who is fit to take the reins of this corporation-body?
A new thought that is prolly just an old thought thought anew: what is good, everything that increases the feeling of power...
Yes...power, agency, 'control'...a system or habits can do this most easily...even if I do nothing else during the day, at least let me sleep and wake up at the same time every day
To shake up the stagnant pool after Boss Fear left, Power must take centre stage...it is a worthwhile psycho-physiological goal
Baby steps...crawl before walking before running before flying...one does not fly into flying
Patience...oodles of it...Grace...oceans of it...Kindness...a whole fucking universe of it... it's the regime of kindness actually...power is only the way to exercise the mandate of this new scion-sage
And of course, CONSISTENCY...cause this is no sprint but a marathon...marathon mentality (sorry Kobe)
Ultimately answerable only to myself...but no longer a sole shareholder...only have a controlling stake