I hate that my memory has no conception of time tied into it so I can't just traced back through an index on memories based on when they happened.
i wonder if most people actually have that
i think when ppl think about memories in time they're including a hidden step
I suspect my ability exists, but due to a mixture of poor connectivity (signal propagation?) and an underpowered signal means it's harder for me to develop that hidden step since the stuff that step depends on isn't readily available in my conscious awareness.
had some luck with "narrative therapy" techniques to help create a stronger cause-effect sense of the flow of time. Maybe if I had this training in my childhood I could have internalized it as an automatic habit.
Or at least strengthened whatever pathways exist between my spatial memory and the bit in the brain that senses time so it doesn't need to be something I have to focus on.
I've been able to pay attention to my hunger and stomach doings - at least when i'm having good days. When my chron's isn't bothering me, I sleep more regularly and have a poop at the same time everyday. Sets my pace, lol.
The hidden step (of pooping)
narrative therapy? sounds promising -- my temporal problems are probably related to insufficient narrativizing
Take my idea with a grain of salt, I just cobbled together a mix of CBT styled therapies that I found could be done without a therapist
I think the actual therapy is more like a self-authorship stuff ala kegan https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-authorship but I was leveraging the subset of it that related to in-the moment stuff from meditative CBT -> basically trying to pay more attention to the flow of my thoughts. I think the act of framing my own internalized narratives made them more coherent. The better sense of time/cause+effect I think was a side effect. There's likely a better way to approch the problem.
So like a mix of https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narrative_identity#Schizophrenia and https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narrative_therapy
Basically trying to bridge the gap between my larger sense of self and my moment-to-moment doings.
Leveraged many of the ideas stemming from memory Olympics that I was already playing with. Trying to remember longer and longer series of ideas while in the shower and paying attention to the 'flow' of how one idea goes into another. https://www.ted.com/talks/joshua_foer_feats_of_memory_anyone_can_do
Once I got good at that, I started applying it to older movies that I had a hard time remembering in the right order. Then I figured that I could apply that technique to the narrative identity stuff - reasoning that if it helps with theory of mind in schizophrenia, it might do something for autism's version of ToM issues.
I remember starting to do it in ernest after watching https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYlCVwxoL_g and being inspired to fix my shit. So that puts it roughly at april 2012 - so 7ish years of off and on experimenting.