"You know what makes a garden?
Gardens aren't just about the thriving of the desired plants. They're also about the non-thriving of the non-desired plants.
And weeding is hard work, and it's boring, and it's tedious, and it's unsexy."
I keep forgetting that podcasts are a good antidote to, well… doting. Lol. I mean loneliness.
Good ones anyway. I usually don’t feel like it but listening to one rn after so long is so nice
A very me day. Didnt get all the boxes defo (goes to show how life is literally so expansive), but still very me.
Friend slept over and we vibed, and lol experimentally cooked when we woke up
Went for Friday prayers
Went to study, almost fell asleep, just stuck to reading/studying on my own terms, trying to find the golden insight in the needle in the haystack of notes.
Came home was just exhausted, so just napped.
Woke up, gym w Cassius. Deadlifts and back wew. Good stuff.
Groceriesssss. Me and my thicccc grocery runs.
Cooked a bit of leftovers with veg. Took an hour. But food was good af and it was accompanied by my youtube sesh (havent had a good one in agessss)
Watched whatifalthist on greed and the world. Insightful as fuck, as always. Then watched why modern romance is awful. WOW what an amazing vid. And she’s so charmingly funny to me.
Then candlelit shower. Reflecting, reflecting, reflecting. Synthesis and good ideas yay.
Among those i realized how happy i was just with my life.
For that im grateful yay
And also how quirky? Eccentric? My life is. And that hey see i dont need a girl. I dont need someone to fully get me. Like wow them freaking multitudes bro damn. Quality living, show up for yourself king. It feels good as fuck just living authentically!!!!!! LFGGG.
Idk i know that feeling hardly lasts, i wonder why. Maybe it just takes more un/re-learnjng.
I’ve learned that having too much love to give feels really like having too much to say. Time is finite. Life is finite. People dont have all day to talk to you, people don’t have all their life to love you.
And that simply has to be resolved by accepting unlived lives